
“…though formerly I was a blasphemer, persecutor, and insolent opponent. But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief,” (1 Timothy 1:13 (ESV)
Pastor, musician, author and reformer John Newton (1725-1807) is well known for his classic hymn Amazing Grace. He is also known for several striking and memorable quotes concerning the Christian life. Here are but a few.
“Although my memory’s fading, I remember two things very clearly: I am a great sinner and Christ is a great Savior.”
“God sometimes does His work with gentle drizzle, not storms.”
Whoever is truly humbled — will not be easily angry, nor harsh or critical of others. He will be compassionate and tender to the infirmities of his fellow-sinners, knowing that if there is a difference — it is grace alone which has made it! He knows that he has the seeds of every evil in his own heart. And under all trials and afflictions — he will look to the hand of the Lord, and lay his mouth in the dust, acknowledging that he suffers much less than his iniquities have deserved.”
“I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am”
In today’s text, the Apostle Paul honestly remembered what he used to be. He called himself a former blasphemer, persecutor, and insolent opponent. The object of his blasphemy, persecution and insolent opposition was none other than Jesus Christ (Acts 9:1-4). This was what Paul was formerly (πρότερον; proteron). This meant his life prior to his conversion.
A blasphemer (βλάσφημον; blasphemon) is one who defames and slanders someone or something. It is reviling, insulting, and despising a person, place or thing. It means to speak evil. Paul not only did this personally, he sought to persuade others to do the same (Acts 26:11).
A persecutor (διώκτην; diokten) means to oppose, harass, and torment. Luke recorded this as historical fact (Acts 8:1-3)
To be an insolent opponent (ὑβριστήν; hybristen) refers to a violent insulter. This implies the malicious treatment of others (Rom. 1:30).
Paul also acknowledged he acted ignortantly in unbelief before his conversion. Paul’s active practice and work was steeped in ignorance (ἀγνοῶν; agnoon) or a failure to understand who Christ was and accomplished. This ignorance was not rooted in any lack of intelligence, but by his unbelief (ἀπιστίᾳ; apistia). Despite being a leader in religious Judaism (Phil. 3:1-6), Paul was a man void of true faith, trust, dependence, commitment and worship of the One, True God of heaven and earth. Ironically, Paul sought to serve the LORD by persecuting the LORD he sought to serve.
The great news was Paul received mercy (ἠλεήθην; eleethen). The LORD sovereignly chose to “not” give Paul what he deserved; judgment. Rather, He gave him what he did not deserve; forgiveness, redemption, reconciliation and justification (Eph. 2:1-5).
“Before his conversion, Paul persecuted the church (Acts 8:3; 9:1-5; 22:4-5; 26:9-11; Gal. 1:13). At that time, he saw it as his obligation in his zeal for God’s glory (Phil. 3:6). But now, having received grace through Jesus Christ, he views his history as a persecutor as constituting him ‘the least of the apostles’ (I Cor.15:8-10); ‘the least of all the saints’ (Eph. 3:8), and the ‘foremost of sinners’ (I Tim. 1:15-16),” explains Dr. R. C. Sproul.
John Calvin writes, “We see how candidly he acknowledges that it might be brought against him as a reproach, and how far he is from extenuating his sins, and how, by willingly acknowledging his unworthiness, he magnifies the greatness of the grace of God. Not satisfied with having called himself a “persecutor,” he intended to express more fully his rage and cruelty by an additional term, an oppressor.”
“But he appears to insinuate that there is no room for pardon, unless when ignorance can be pleaded in excuse. What then? Will God never pardon anyone who has sinned knowingly? I reply, we must observe the word unbelief; for this term limits Paul’s statement to the first table of the law. Transgressions of the second table, although they are voluntary, are forgiven; but he who knowingly and willingly breaks the first table sins against the Holy Spirit, because he is in direct opposition to God. He does not err through weakness, but by rushing wickedly against God, gives a sure proof of his reprobation.”
This is why our justification from God must be by grace alone, through faith alone in the person and work of Jesus Christ alone. Read and carefully meditate upon Paul’s inspired words to the church at Rome.
“21 But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it— 22 the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, 25 whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. 26 It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.” (Rom. 3:212-6 (ESV)
Therefore, we echo the words of John Newton: “I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am”
Thanks be to God for His amazing grace and mercy; not only to the Apostle Paul but also to all believers in Christ. May the Lord’s truth and grace be found here.
Soli deo Gloria!









